Tired

I slept for only a few hours last night because I had gone to the midnight showing of Twilight Sagas: New Moon.

The movie was hilarious. In all honesty, it was so freakin' funny. Ok, I'm too tired to talk so I will let George Michael do the talking:

An Extremely Brief Essay On My Life's Love of Music

I heard this song a while back from Kyle and couldn't stop listening to it then. Then I went ahead and lived the rest of my life knowing it was here but not listening to it. Then, I bought the new Devendra Banhart album and was listening to one particular song that reminded me of Jimi Hendrix. While going through my ipod for that particular song that reminded me of Jimi Hendrix, I went by this song once more.

I can't resist a song with such great guitar playing. There are a few details about songs that I cannot resist no matter how much I try:

1. Amazing guitar shreds
2. Heavy bass
3. Serious drumming

Yeah lyrics and vocals are important too. I only enjoy those when they are some strange vocal keys that you could probably never reach or the lyrics are so seriously ground shaking that I can't stop listening to them.

There are some bands these days that can reach my criteria for amazing music, but I always stick to classics. They rock the body and soul and sometimes I wonder if even the music coming out today will be as memorable as the music from back then. I get all tingly from head to toe. My body quakes and my eyes literally close. It's probably a reaction to wanting to hear every detail and every note better. As they say, the other senses are heightened once the eyes are not involved.

Music transports me and keeps me from going insane. I don't mind silence either, but the sound of a good song will always keep me listening.

Heavy Eyes and Late Night Flights

I spent a majority of my time yesterday looking for flights out to SF from NY in late January. I'm going to San Francisco for my birthday and no one can stop me! Muhahahah!!!!

I need the vacation so badly. I've been having dreams about my office and the people in my office and the people who don't live in my office. I've got very little energy right now, but I wanted to tell you the news and also let you in on my newest shoe obsession:



I covet these shoes from Alexander McQueen's 2010 Spring Collection. OMG. SO HOT! Ok. Enough of this. Goodnight.

Weird Dreams and Bad Scenarios

Last night, I had a crazy dream about you.

So My Music Purchases From This Morning

I regret some of them.

That'll teach me to just buy whatever sounds good after the first song.

The Punctual Reality aka The Place Where Dreams Are Put On Hold aka I've Gone Crazy and am Writing Philosophy That Doesn't Make Any Sense

I have been noticing lately on my facebook that a lot of my friends from high school are already engaged to be married. Perhaps it's not everyone, but most show photos of their rings and make kissy faces with their fiances. I'm fine with this. Go ahead and do the things you are supposed to do. I won't interfere and I won't judge. Congratulations are in order.

The whole idea of relationships make me think all the time. It's at some point in a relationship where the man feels the need to buy a ring. He takes his partner (man or woman) out on a romantic picnic/dinner/farm day/museum tour/base jumping adventure and plans to "pop the question" right after dessert/dessert/dessert/coffee/removing the parachutes once safely landing. He will want to get down on one knee, make an awkwardly beautiful speech and ask "will you marry me?" The woman (or man) gasps and says yes with arms wide open. It's a dream come true...or is it?

When all things may be messy, but life just keeps chugging along, I call that "The Punctual Reality".

"The Punctual Reality" is based on the theory that life keeps moving forward before you've had a chance to sit back and relax. It is the idea that you think due to years of growing up on media like TV and Internet. "The Punctual Reality" is the idea that your brain is supposed to do these things because either your biological clock tells you to do or some other natural force.

It is the constant moving in a forward motion. No returns. No prisoners. And this is the place where personal dreams are sometimes held back from becoming a reality. Everyone wants to feel accomplishment. Everyone wants to make "it" in this world, but whether or not you do, your life will not stop you from survival. Survival meaning:

1. Working a job to keep you lofty.
2. Procreating.
3. The human nature to not be alone.

When subconsciously following "The Punctual Reality" of life, you tend to put things on hold. Dreams, wishes, desires, hopes, etc. They tend to ride on the sidelines of your fast paced life. However, soon after the engagement has been made, it is put off to make plans for a wedding. After the wedding, plans to find a place to live. After that, plans to find a job to keep both you and your loved one secure. After that, having children. After that, taking care of those children. After that, finding that your dreams have now become the breadth of your children. Do you see how things just snowball one right after the other? Soon enough the dreams are placed so far on hold that it is either too late to do anything about it or you don't have the resources to do it.

Why I call it a punctual reality is because it is believed to be a part of some sort of biological clock. When it strikes, it hits you. It doesn't become an epiphany, but a reality and it's something that you can and cannot avoid. You follow it because you personally wants this. You don't follow it because you personally want something else. I only believe that it is punctual because it comes right around the time where people start to make plans for the rest of their life.

The first half of your life is systematically a part of "The Punctual Reality". At a certain age, you attend kindergarten and then make your way all through the different levels until you graduate from high school normally around the ages of 17-18. Then, it's plans for college. After that, the world is an oyster (as teachers tell you when you are young) and you have to make the most of "it". It's right on time. It never falters. You just go with the flow and time will always find you.

But it got me thinking about the life I am leading compared to the life they lead. What makes me so different from them? How come I am not engaged? What am I doing differently? My punctual reality seems to be on an infinite delay. There is no engagement for me as of late and even my dreams are placed on hold for something else. What is this something? I have no idea, but I keep on searching for it like a monk searching for enlightenment.

Now, to make things clear, I don't have any plans to be married or engaged in the near future. I am just simply stating the fact that we are all around the same age (24-26) and all trying to create some semblance of a real life with ourselves. Some people are taking the punctual reality road. Others have taken a step off the beaten path. We all just want to prosper; who doesn't?

Granted, there is some leeway in this theory. You can live this life as well as live your dream. However, the punctual reality of things is that life keeps moving with or without you. It's up to you to keep a leash on it otherwise you're just along for the ride.

Music Always Makes Me Late For Work

My partner on the music page wanted me to bring some stuff to listen to for our "Music Club" featured article on the new site. We listed Devendra Banhart's show this coming Monday, but we need an album to review as well.

I went a little overboard this morning and it's going to make me pay by making me late to work. The things I do for love.